Escape into the Shadows

I tried too hard
to be noticed,
I tried to be someone 
I was not;

waiting and waiting
I watch time slowly tick away
as another day dawns
I watch the world scurry around;

I wanted to be someone,
I wanted to be famous,
I wanted life and
I wanted love;

I wanted a lot of things
that were out of reach
as I sink in slowly
under the weight of expectations;

I tried to be what they
wanted me to be,
I tried to be what I was
not meant to be;

I tried too hard
I pushed too far
and I went too far;

with a forced smile,
 

and  a fake laughter
to cover my tracks
I escape into the shadows
and try to fight this one out,
all alone;

Over cast

Thunder and lightning,

it’s been raining all night,
standing under an umbrella,
i am drenched to the bone;

its’ been like this for quite sometime,

cloudy and overcast,
dark clouds lingering in the horizon,
threatening to flood the land below;

drawing a parallel,

ma life has been like this,
dark, gloomy and overcast,
ready to burst anytime;

i tried to take shelter,

i tried to do things that will protect me,
i tried and i did,
but i could not escape;

stuck, as i am, deeply into it,

the dark forces of life seem to be
taking control of  ma life,
and pushing me towards the brink;

i tried to run away,

but with legs bound by chains,
i could not even move an inch;

i tried to close my eyes,
 

but the darkness is even more frightening;

 as i wade through the storm,
completely drenched and
soaked to the bone,
the rain keeps falling;

 as i watch the sky turn pale and grey and overcast with clouds,
darkness slowly sets in from all directions,
standing under an umbrella,
i sit there, waiting for the light (sunrise),
on a world that is getting darker and darker (Scarier);